| Let me sink in this puddle of apathy. I want to burry my face in it and drown out the voices that call me to action. They call me to love, they ask me to care, they want me to help, and yet I find myself helpless and unable to help them. I’m so overwhelmed by what needs to be done that I close my eyes and do nothing! It’s not procrastination, it’s not even laziness, it’s the stifling feeling of weakness that one feels when faced with an insurmountable obstacle. Instead of trying climb over it, I compare its height with my own smallness, lose confidence in my strength, and wither away into nothing – unable to move and unable to help, wanting to make a difference but too discouraged to try. I’m intimidated by my own weakness and I'm afraid of the obstacles that remind me of it. Shall I learn to be content with my inadequacies? Shall I accept the fact that I will never make a significant difference? After all, it’s not my responsibility to change the world…. It’s ours. So let me be content with my small acts of kindness…I’m doing my part. Don’t ask me to give more money or pray more diligently, aren’t I already doing enough? But what is ENOUGH? Is “enough” the minimum that is required for you to satiate your guilty conscious or does enough mean doing EVERYTHING in your power for the good of humanity? Don’t you see?!!! There is no such thing as “enough” when there are people who are starving and homeless! Let's not be satisfied till every mouth is fed and every wound is healed! I don’t believe we can ever do enough...we can only do more. But look at me...what I'm doing is so little! It's so little that when I compare it with what needs to be done it becomes nothing! I'm not doing enough, I'm not even doing more, I'm doing nothing!!!
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